SPARK

Oh! ooVoo! ^___^ ohhhh, Facebook! Yes, We've known each other but we never really had the chance to be close friends when we were still in our hometown.

Hi's and Hello's, a simple Smile was enough. He was Mr. Ordinary and I was Miss Complicated. I knew a little about him and I am sure he knows me. The heck~ of course, he's my Ex boyfriend's friend and I am his ex girlfriends (3 of them) friend. hahahah!!

How did it happen that I had this unbelievable blast of emotions. I never thought of us being connected with each other. I am peacefully trudging my wonderful and happy journey here in America and he is busy enjoying his school heap and career in the United Kingdom when suddenly one of my friend cross his path and they had a short story to share. I don't wanna delve into that deeply because his story and her story already come to pass but I am sure, it happened

for a purpose whatever result he gained after the bumping.

They both had their share of stories after their not so serious relationship? or I don't know, let's just say----serious for the other one and so so for the other.. (It's for you to guess who's who).

It started with a simple question, How is he and my friend going and the simple question leads to a connection that made me admire him in a very honorable manner. We had the most time to really exchange thoughts about what he felt towards my friend that I get so attached of his story...maybe because we had the same experience and I thought of it as a lesson that I don't want him to felt a year ago... I was so much concern of his feeling because it really sucks! I meant, the FEELING of being unworthy SUCKS! Oh well, I got over it and yes, I know he did! ^___^ and he should stop rubbing it to my face~~ because even if he kept on telling me that he MOVED ON, I still don't believe on him. Although I had the benefit of the doubt and the right to pretend for a moment just to show respect and maybe one way of showing him my support. Well, as you know... the first thing that you should do when you need to move on is ACCEPTING the fact that you have moved on~~ even if you're still in the process of moving on.. Yes, getting there but it's a process!! Could you just be patient? hahaha!! oh, back to the story!

His coming was a surprise and I am just so thankful because God gave me such opportunity to help someone in building himself back again or maybe, gathering the broken pieces of the delicate glass once again.. Even though I get to have this kind of connection with him in a different way, I am thankful because he changed my perspective towards guys and for giving me a reason to smile again. You are deeply admired by someone who thought of "guys" as loser? user? and player... thank you for making me realized that guys could be emotional wreck sometimes (wink).

What he showed to me was not a typical story of heartache and I just couldn't believe it to happen to a guy whom I thought was Mr. Ordinary but turns out to be Mr. Hopelessly Romantic. He's deeply admired not because of his physical appearance but because how he shows himself to me and how he present his story was without hesitation and without pretensions in his heart. I could even sense when he feels like crying and he feels like screaming---- Just the thought of it of sharing to me is already a heart warming experience and an immeasurable feeling of happiness and gratitude.

Thank you for trusting me and for showing me that LOVE indeed moves in mysterious ways. We may never know who comes along in our journey, we may be caught in between by our emotions, we may overly exaggerate the boiling sensation of passion towards others, we may hit ourselves with thorns but the thing is----without all these circumstance, we wont realized the value of being able to LOVE and be LOVED.

I for instance considered LOVE as very marvelous thing in the world. Be it given to family, friends or lover, it might be risky and sometimes difficult but it's free. We are all given a choice to continue our stride bringing with us our armor of lessons and realizations that to live Life full of LOVE is like living a life full of unknown. It is for us to prepare ourselves to every stride that we make with valor and motivation coupled with prayers and complete surrender to the LORD.

I admit, I like him and I haven't felt this for a long time. I know it's temporary. I know it's risky. I know it's difficult. But to every stride I make, I look UP and proudly say....

Lord, guide me on my journey to LOVE and lead me to the right man. He have a mark in my heart and we still continue to make our journey together but it's still Your Will that shall be done. All I know is that, my feelings now is much more controlled by your leading and no matter what happens, I AM glad that I met him and that every morning is a different morning. Thank you for teaching me how to control my emotions Lord.

Right now, I am SMILING with a spark in my eyes without expecting anything in return. Just the thought of him being able to move forward after a downfall is more than enough for me. Thank you for coming into my life JLP.^_____^

NEW JOURNEY

My walk with Christ is never easy but its very fulfilling.

My heart has a burning passion and the desire to be God's instrument and to serve Him all the days of my life. I have been spiritually baptized March 31, 2011 and my life after the baptism of the holy spirit is never the same and will never be the same again. My heart now is full of compassion in obeying God's word and searching for the deeper purpose of my life.

I have been introduced with salvation May 28, 2008 but I haven't understood my divine calling. Since then I am starting reading the bible and I get to appreciate every word of it but it's not as rewarding as now. I started joining praise and worship and later on transfer from one church to another. I am a catholic by birth so I have the obligation to follow what I am taught to follow. THE CATHOLIC FAITH.

I have been to 3 different kinds of Pentecostal church but I have been attending also catholic mass because I am obliged to do so. It has been a struggle in my spirit because I had to choose between my family and my own belief. I backslid and followed my fathers advice to stay at the catholic faith. Even though I'm in the catholic faith, I knew my heart is searching for the truth. My heart is alway seeking for the purpose and I kept on praying that He may guide me the His path. I am confident that I have been very prayerful sin

ce then and I've always told HIM to lead the way and that let His will be done. I have always trusted Him in everything except that I haven't yet submitted completely myself to the Lord.
Days rush by and it's the same old routine everyday. I had a little appreciation of life but I knew it was never enough. When I pray I have always believed that He's going to give it and I was never wrong in that belief because He never failed me to give everything that I've asked for by His name. And indeed, He is my ultimate provider.

God have molded me to become the person I am

and He have given me so much in my life that I didn't expect I could even have it. I've finally met Him and the joy that I am feeling right now is immeasu

rable. I have always thanked God for all the blessings that He have bestowed upon me and the act of gratitude is just so overwhelming that I couldn't even believe I have been so much blessed. If there is more to that---then that's the WORD.

Now that I am a new creation to Christ, I am not gonna stop from searching my purpose and from attaining victory against the enemy.

I'm gonna continue to know the importance of my being and embrace everything with humility in my heart. I know I will be victorious in every battle that I will have. Even my family couldn't break the connection I have now with the Lord and I am very excited to know each day's task and on how can I be an effective Christian and a follower of Christ.

I pray that my faith will be stronger as the months run by. Even if it won't be an easy responsibility, I know that VICTORY IS MINE BECAUSE JESUS IS WITH ME AND HE'S THE AUTHORITY, THEREFORE I AM THE AUTHORITY. MY ENEMY WON'T BE ABLE TO DEFEAT ME.

God did not promise me a storm free life but I am sure that I have a storm proof life. I am walking and keeping my faith and I will be a fisher of men.

I am not afraid to die-----MY LIFE IS ETERNAL---

And I hope, I could share the joy that I am feeling right now to others.
I don't how and when but I know in God's perfect timing, I could. ^____^

In God's time--MR. RIGHT!

Dear Mr. Right,

I just felt the urge to write to you since I am persuaded to do so. It has been 24 years now and I am still wondering, “When am I going to meet you?” ----A question that remains unanswered---I dreamed of you not perfect but someone who could make me smile even without the need to do it...

Someone who don’t just give me a bunch of “red roses” because it’s our anniversary or because you wanted to impress me but someone who gives me a piece of flower because you just feel giving it to me. It doesn't matter how big or how small, what matte

rs most is the effort you've showed. I hope someday when I meet you, you’ll bring me with you in the dark starry night and we’ll count the stars together. We’ll talk about anything under it…. And just enjoy each other’s company.

Let’s go the beach and we’ll make a sand castle…we’ll be happily lying in the sand and make fun of ourselves while taking pictures. I’ll cover your whole body with it and then I’ll kiss you when you fall asleep.

I’ll hug you tight when you start to rant at me…And I’ll kiss you when you start to move your eyebrows and look at me horribly…And when you’re hungry, I’ll accompany you not in a high class restaurant but we’ll be eating together in the street… eating siomai or perhaps, tempura? And just in case, you’re tummy aches, I’ll buy you some medicine or just massage your tummy until the pain ceases…

And when you want to play basketball, soccer, frisbee or anything that you wanted to take part in…I won’t just cheer for you, I’ll play with you.I may not be that good at it, but the thought of us being together is more than enough. And in circumstance that you want to play with your friends, no worries!! I will still be there for you… preparing for your extra shirt and your bottled water.

At times when want to have night out with the boys, I’ll understand and would always be lenient for you… but please be honest with me and don’t lie to me even once..Just tell me when you want me to be with you and I’ll be with you right there and then. And if ever you’re busy with something else, inform me… I will always give you the space to do your stuff. Not because I am being lenient all the time, but because I trust you and I trust you for not breaking my trust.

Let us explore the world together… We’ll go mountain climbing, river trekking, mountain biking, white water rafting, snorkeling, bungy jumping, back packing… etc…You just don’t know how excited I am to do all this things with you…

If we have extra money, we’ll tour around the Philippines and the world and let us drowned ourselves with pictures and happy memories together. So that when we’ll have a family of our own, we have a superb story to share to our kids. Don’t forget to take “stolen pictures” of me…
I love being stalked by you!!

You’ll be that someone I envision a future with—us filling out visa forms as we travel the universe, picking out our first dog together and arguing about what to name it, or being snap-happy stage parents in our preschooler’s annual mini-plays. And I keep hoping that maybe someday when we find each other, you will become that someone whose smile I wake up to in the morning and the last one I speak to every night.

With the hope I will be yours for always,

Hope to see you soon my Mr. Right!!

With anticipation coupled with prayers that I will be yours forever,

Hannah

I still have a lot of things that I wanted to tell to you… I have a bunch of dreams to share with you…but let me just stop here…. It’s up to you to find out what it is…
So to the man I know does exist, and who will help me maybe make sense of the world someday, this man I can’t wait to love. Please know that I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you. But for now, I wait. Fingers crossed and palms held together, I hope that you’re out there somewhere, waiting for me, too.

SSEAYP 2010

Spectacular

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An experience of a lifetime.

I don't know how sseayp changed me, all I know is that the experience was so overwhelming that I couldn't even measure the depthness of sseayp sickness up to now. SSEAYP was just a dream that I didn't thought I could achieve, I still get teary eyed while watching the videos and pictures and the experience is still so fresh and it carved a wonderful memories that I will forever bring with me. It was so deeply rooted that it's just so hard to removed from my system.
I have gained so much.. not just friends and family but including weight (guffawed). I miss everything about the program and my words aren't enough to explain detail by detail how it changed my life. I have friends who will be joining the 38th SSEAYP (Francis Ebardo and Monaifa Basir) and the joy that I felt having known that they'll be joining the program was the same feeling that I felt when I was chosen to be part of it last year. The feeling of excitement lingers in my nerve that I wanted to shout and jump for joy.

Just as deep as the deep blue sea. My SSEAYP experience is just so deep that I don't know how to start my stories and how to end it. I don't know how to express everything into writing. I don't know how to share it to others. All i know, I am so proud I've been part of the program and that I've learned so much from it. My 53 days aren't enough to share my stories, not even 53 years. Because out of the 53 days I've spent in the ship, I did not only gained friends, I gained new family and even if it would take me 53 years or more, my sseayp stories will never come to an end and my sseayp journey will continue as long as I am living in this world.

To the next batch, all I can say...
It's your time to shine! LET YOUR JOURNEY BEGIN...

LOVE-Volunteer Work

The change must start from within and we have to instill in us the value needed for development of our country which is LOVE.

Elected as Sangguniang Kabataan President of Iligan wasn't an easy responsibility. At the young age of 16, I am already involved with politics, talked to old politicians, passed resolutions, attend youth program and the like. 5 years passed and personally, I’m not content with my performance as a young leader because I believe I still have the best shot to give.

Before I get into office, I had many plans for the youth because I know I awe them my service. But it's just so hard to convince everyone with my ability to give my service to my constituents. The “higher ranked government officials” doesn’t treat us that seriously for they believe that we are still kids apart from them who had been through a lot of experiences in this field.

I believe that it’s not right to totally blame myself about my frustrations in governance even though it is a given fact that I am a big factor that’s why all these had happened. It is in the constitution that every Filipino must stick with their responsibilities as citizens of this country but I believe it's not just about responsibilities, but it's about the LOVE of country.

Being new in the field must not be a reason for us to be marked as people who cannot do what they can or can do least that they can. Often do I hear “we are still young for the position” when it comes to service to the community. They lack confidence in us. But in a way I’d like to thank them for that. They’re partly right for saying that we are just new in this field and knows only a little about it. In a way, that flatters me for it gives me the benefit to say that, “I am just about to dip my foot in the sea of dirty politics and good thing, unlike them, I’m not drowned on it”.

After my experiences in the government, I did not stop in searching for the deeper meaning of my life as a young leader, I did volunteer work and serve the community and quench the desires of my heart for humanity. The bad experiences I had in the government even gave me more reasons to continue my plight for development. I did not stop from dreaming of better Philippines. I did not allow negativity cover me but instead, I organized young individuals and formed an organization named Youthsays Iligan for Change (YOU-SIC). It is an organization committed to the holistic formation of Iligan Youth through an intellectual, social, moral and spiritual citizenry. I was even more challenged to involved myself in volunteer work. When you say volunteer work, it is something that you do without expecting anything in return. But in a way, it could also be a reason for growth and development without expecting you could benefit from those experiences. I for instance changed a lot and it gave me a sense of purpose in my life. It changed my perspective and it added color to the reality I'm living.

Volunteer works taught me values that will forever be etched in my system. It taught me how life should be and it taught me that Life's fulfillment is not based on wealth, career, education and achievements but Life's satisfaction is when you share your greatest love to others. It's just so good when you see other peoples smile, it's so good when tears welled off their cheeks because they are overly sentimental about the changes brought in their lives. It's not just fulfilling, it is gratifying.

God said, I am fearfully and wonderfully made.Just the thought of it makes my heart leaps to joy. If I have been made like this, a simple act of random kindness is not just a way to recompense what God have given me, but it is something that could make the Lord happy and a way to give glory to the talents and blessings that He have bestowed in me.

When you serve others with humility in your heart and without the intention to please other people, without the need to be paid for the kindness done, BUT JUST PLEASE GOD ALONE... the feeling is so magnificent that you wanted to quench the thirst of your soul, the desires of your heart for service to humanity.

To quote from Gawad Kalinga,
NO ONE IS TO POOR THAT HE CANNOT SHARE,
NO ONE IS TO RICH THAT HE CANNOT CARE.

To God be the glory,
I am Hannah and I am a Global change maker! :)