You're not an accident.
God created me for a purpose and He puts me in this unknown and complicated world for a vast of reasons to discover.
My Fall 2011 started productively should I say. I didn't just enjoy the "cold weather" again but I realized a lot of things today.
It's now 16 minutes past the hour of 1 in the morning and I just couldn't allow myself to sleep not to explode my thoughts on my realizations and God's astonishing way of making me learn things in a subtle and orderly way.
It has been awhile now that I have been talking to God about my future---not just my career and what He wanted me to become in my life but including my "next relationship". I have been so anxious of having a relationship with somebody who's worthy of me and my love. Maybe this was a domino effect to what had happen to me in the past that I had to be very precise of my standards toward a guy.
1. He needs to be more In love with the Lord than me--(BOLDER than the faith I have)
2. He should be Faithful
3. He should be Affectionate
4. He should be Romantic
5. He should Communicate
I couldn't blame myself for having such kind of bench marking because my amazing journey of life taught me all this things which are not things but 'character' that I value a lot.
We were travelling then from shopping with my Auntie's and cousin---and both of my aunties we're very busy talking about their love life and stuffs' and even though I never really had any intention to listen to their conversation, I felt like God was talking to me through it. After hearing all those "married life dramas" in life, I felt God's love and it's so profound that the only that I could do was "SMILE.
This was the LOVE that God have been constantly reminding me about. He loves me so much that He wanted me to discover things on my own and provide me the questions that I have been asking Him about for so long. Now I know the reasons behind every question and I am so blessed that God gave me the answers.
My auntie's right, she'd rather be single than suffer the consequence of being knot together with a person not even worthy of the sacrifice she's doing. It was a relief hearing those words from the pro with relationships. They have been UP's and DOWNS of life and I just couldn't believe that through them, I am learning and my heart is healing----it's not just an ordinary healing, it's extraordinary because I am putting "scar remover" to it. The BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST.
Now, I am fully convinced by the Lord that I should not have a relationship yet not unless I'm a fully grown person with the Lord. I am so glad that I am not carrying with me a baggage of disappointments but answers and praises to God. It also dawned on me that Life is an amazing journey, it's for us to enjoy it or leave it as is. I can say now that I am HAPPY I am single and I'm slowly building my Faith with God while happily savoring the "spoon feeding" session with my Lord ans savior.
And that's right, I'd rather be single than marry the wrong one and suffer for the rest of my life. I wanted to enjoy the amazing journey of my life while I'm still young. And I'm ready to start my engine and step on the accelerator and begin the journey.
Now, a prayer has been answered and I am God's favorite! ^____~
Praise the Lord for having such kind of realization!
