I don't get it, I felt like I don't want to live in this world anymore. I felt like I just want everything to stop. I don't want to die yet but the world is getting crazy and crazy each day.
I am not sad, I'm not depress, I am not even close to being anxious or whatever. I just don't want to live life if living means SIN. I know I am being crazy with my thoughts sometimes but it's not that I wanted to die because I wanted to die, but I wanted to die because I don't want to live around SIN. If living in this world can cause me to SIN again, I'd rather die a minute before I will disobey God's word.
I wish that every human living in this world would know how wonderful life is to be ready for death. I wish everyone would realized that to live is Christ and to die is gain. But it's not an overnight thing. We should seek God with all our heart. It's like a student who's working a lot to earn credit for his study, for him to proceed to another level, he needs to work out on his level and do whatever he could to succeed. That's the relationship with Jesus is all about---- We should work it out and be eager to pass every trials and sufferings.
Oh well, I am just saying I am ready. That's all I wanted to say.
