When God says, ALL

Everything! This is what what God wants me to submit.

Day by day God always reminds me that my life here on earth is temporary. Before the year 2011 comes to an end, I am so blessed that I am able to understand the true value of living in this world. It is through serving God in the best way that I could.

My walk has never been easy, it was never abrupt, it was never expected, it's just right on time. God knows when to snatch us from the world and this is the best gift that I've ever received in my life. I've been borrowing the air and breathing for 25 years now and I've never experience such joy for the longest, just now!! And I wanted to thank God for the grandeur welcome ever made in my entire existence.

Looking back, ohhhh---I couldn't even think straight and deep on what to look back---- Maybe it's part of God's plan to get my focus in front and I don't wanna wrestle with God because I'm sure He's always right when He does and plans things.

This past few months, God speaks to me to surrender everything and I couldn't figure out what He meant by everything. I've given up my life to Him up to the point of living my life just the way He wanted me to live it but I realized that it doesn't just end there. A decision to obey and actual obedience is different and even if I've decided to live life the way God wanted me to live it, my flesh wants another. It yearns for enjoyment, pleasure and happiness in this world and I don't want it. I am so much eager to obey that I wanted to just close my eyes to the reality of this world, but no matter what I do I am still in the world even if I am not of the world.

I don't fear nothing now in my future because I know God will always be there for me and will always be there to provide light on my feet. But I am afraid of myself that I may not be able to contain the fiery trials of life. I am not perfect but I'm trying living a life like Christ and live like I am perfect but keeping aware of my imperfections.

I am in struggle of my flesh and spirit everyday. Each day, I am learning the value of self control up to the high level of extremity and it's not that easy, it needs focus and drive thus it's breathtaking and challenging. Everyday I always have to remind myself that I don't own the life I am living and that I should be sensitive enough in handling situations and just be right in the steps I am walking. In times, there's a sudden break out of emotions and I couldn't deny it. I am living in my flesh but I am vehement of the life God gave me.

ALL THAT HE WANTS FROM ME.

Lord, I meant all. Everything that I want, take it from me.

JUST TAKE IT FROM ME.

If I will fail you in the future, might as well take me with you before it will happen because I don't want it to happen.

I don't want to disappoint you.

I don't want to fail you.

I'd rather die than commit a sin and fail from the life you've given.

TRAGEDY=UNITY

A different morning. A different Christmas.

After seeing pictures of dead people especially kids just broke my heart into pieces.
I've never seen such tragic incident could be as worst as this in my hometown and I never thought of it to happen, not even in my dreams. When nature speaks, every nano second counts just to save yourself from it. Every moment is significant, every action matters.

A moment of grief for almost everyone in my City and I can feel the emotions slowly dropping as Christmas is coming in just a matter of days. Maybe for other areas in the country they wont feel any difference as they celebrate this joyous celebration but for those people who loss their loved ones, loss their houses, no one with them for Christmas, it's a different celebration.

For me who's from Iligan felt pain even in the midst of distance how much more to those people who's really experiencing it and even had the glimpse of the real situation. I don't wanna blame the government for having such traumatic event because it's not for them to make efforts in stopping the flood from coming it's their responsibility to at least protect and make ways of informing the people but what is 24 hours of preparation? Thus, what is meant to be is meant to be. God never sends us storms, Satan does but God allow it to happen for reasons we don't know and hard for us to understand in our own human wisdom and knowledge.

I for instance felt the same when I heard the news about my mom's cancer. At first it was hard and I couldn't understand why God allow it to happen when He knows I've been a very faithful servant to Him. Later I realized that I have to feel pain to test my faith and to know up to what extent of my faith can God count on me. God allow me to be hurt if I will give up on Him or I will endure the suffering and carry my cross with Him.

I know it's hard, it's painful, sometimes it's dragging and torturing but this is how God tests us. I remember that those who endure till the end are the ones who are entitled to be rewarded in heaven so I would rather experience the rocky road to heaven than the swift road to hell.

The tragedy that hits Iligan now might be as hard as bringing up a child from birth to maturity but like a parent's feeling of satisfaction seeing a child grow, it would be the same with Iligan soon. It will soon rise up from and will recover through God as the parent who will help Him in his growth and maturity and of course through the people who despite the difficulties and trials choose to help and shared their blessings to the affected families.

Indeed, no one is too rich that he cannot care and no one is too poor that he cannot share.

Tragedy that leads to Unity- Typhoon Washi (Sendong)