Love is not a Feeling

I asked my boyfriend if I can post this in my blog--- since he approved it that's why I'm posting it! To God be the glory! To have an amazing relationship with other person is to first create one with the Lord.

"Seek me with all your heart and you will find me" _Jesus_

So, here's my Bear's message:

Hi bee! How is my queen bee doing? I hope you are doing well and depending on the time you get to sit down and read this, I hope your day and your night bring you joy and happiness. Your big bear misses you! He wanted me to tell you how much he misses you and thinks of you! He knows he needs to wait on the Lord for all good things and trust in Him, so may you be reminded of this also.

This card paints the picture of a friendship that is meant to last through thick and thin. There are rainy storms of life and I your bear desire to be with you no matter what. To fight for you, to defend and protect you. To provide for you and to hold you and comfort you...to love you.

I know that trusting in God will help us get there. He is able to work on our behalf in unimaginable ways. I am trusting Him to be everything for me so that I can extend His love to you babe. I think about you quite often. Wondering how my baby's day is going, what she's doing, how your family is doing, and also how you are influencing others in doing the Lord's work.

I'm looking forward to the future but I also realize the present is at hand. I realize and understand there are times when we have to give a little bit more than we are comfortable with. I know babe that you are like superwoman and that even though you may be exhausted some days, the Lord is helping you finish strong. I support you and know that the present is just as important as the future. I want you to know that I will seek the Lord in my present and use faith in my now for our future.

There's something very special and unique about you, and you are the apple of my eye! It doesn't always make the most perfect sense, but in my gut I know I met you for more of a purpose than just to find a new friend or meet a new acquaintance. Just in thinking back to our minimal first two weeks spent with each other, I knew that I would not settle for less. I wanted to get to know you more and spend more time with you. I still feel this way babe! I still do!

I am not God but I believe He can grant us the desires of our heart. The Lord knows where I need Him. But I also desire a Godly woman to be my counterpart and companion. This is my decision. And I will continue dwelling on that fact that yes I do WANT to be a married fellow someday and be an example to my future wife as the Lord counsels me.

For now sweetie, let us live in the moment! Have faith for our future and whatever God allows may we be absolutely content with. Even though I will vouch for you, I realize there is a time for every season of life. I know God works best when He isn't rushed. He is an expert marksman with time. May we trust in Him! I need to! I'm missing you babe but I know that God can and should always be my center first. That I cannot have a restless heart! I need CHRIST!

Of course I like to go on and on.. let me end by saying this:

Love is not a feeling that can get tossed into the ocean whenever a storm comes. Love is part of the ship. It remains through thick and thin. Love never fails. Love dies with the ship as it also sails with the ship. All I want for you is to be loved and cared for because I believe you are worth it - because you are! Jesus proved it when He died for your sins and gave you a new life. So yes, love is not a feeling or a mixed emotion. Love is an eternal flame that does not or cannot be extinguished. Love is of God and from God. Love is God. God is eternal so love is eternal and lasts forever. I want to be engraved in the ship. I want to be stuck to the boat! That no matter the course of the ship, no matter the weather that may come, no matter the tossing of seas or the fearful situations, I pray that I will hold my ground and always remain. I pray I will always live a life of love. Through thick n thin.

Dearest Hannah, my palangga, I am yours and I am waiting to see you again soon through the will of God.

I miss you and I love you!

Your big bear,

Timothy

Purity Walk

They said, when we are in a relationship there's no way for the couple to not kiss, hold hands and even do premarital sex--- 

In a world where right becomes wrong and wrong becomes a compromises, they said it's normal. Yes, it's normal---only because it's okay to make love.

A purity walk for a couple who lives with the norms will be hard, but for someone who lives for the word, it is possible. I am in a relationship now and as Christian couple, we decided to not kiss nor hold hands and of course not commit fornication (sex before marriage). We both agreed to be an example to the "broken world" we are living. It may be a long way for us but we acknowledge our friendship and relationship with the Lord that makes our relationship important.  

We don't trust our own capacity to love each other but  God's amazing and unending love for us. We built our hope not in our hope but God's hope for our future and purpose. We take one day at a time and for others we may look stupid as we are running against the crowd--- but through the strength of the Lord, our purity walk will be a success.

For others, love should be partnered with physical intimacy. For us, it's our intimacy with Christ that keeps us from stumbling and disobeying His word---which makes us love each other and other people. My boyfriend said, I will never lay hands on you or kiss you not until marriage if God allows. A sacrifice he has to pursue to achieve greatness in the Kingdom of God. In order to pursue me, He needs to pursue God and His words.

 I have witnessed guys in the past who's ultimate intention was to let a woman fall then leave when they get what they want, which result to a woman's low self esteem, feeling of unworthiness, resentment, fear of love, fear of men and many other negative feeling that only Satan brings.  

Sex is made by God as special and it should be shared to someone who deserves you not just about you. It is made to experience oneness in the spirit and the soul. When it is shared to the wrong person, a soul tie that has already been made through sex will still be present which make it harder for the other or both party to separate from each other--- one or the other should be hurt. Anything that is tied when forcefully pulled will be broken into small pieces. Like humans, we are to be careful whom are we tying our soul with, this may cause us to struggle in our relationship with others or may result to a wonderful and successful relationship when centered in God's word.

So now that I am in a relationship, we choose purity and we decide to commit all those when we are ready and when God says we are. It's not that we are trying to make the church look "holy" but we are trying to make other christian understand that the secret to a successful christian relationship is self-control and sensitivity to the word of the Lord.

Our purity walk will be an example of faith and will build other young generations of Christian to pursue God more and not their future partners. Soak yourselves with the word and allow it to guide you in every step of the way. It will make you become a powerful Christian couple that serves the Lord our Saviour Jesus Christ.