Trying is part of growing

How would you know if you haven't even tried---?

Trying is part of growing-----we'll never know the outcome if we don't even dare to try. Life is a journey and while enjoying the day with everything, thoughts comes so randomly. Living a day with gladness has always been my motto in life and every time I open my eyes, I always thank the Lord for giving me another wonderful day to "TRY" once again.

What I've done from yesterday may not be the same as today and for the days to come, but I could do it again but with different "perspective and motivation".

I have a lot of things to try in life. Things that I consider possible and attainable but it's just time and circumstance that stops me from doing it now. I have options, plenty of them and it's up to me to choose one at a time. Let me enumerate some for the mean time since it's hard for me to enumerate everything at this moment since I just wrote this randomly.

1. I wanna do sky diving but I'm afraid I'm not doing it anymore after I saw the people jumping from the 100th floor of the World Trade Center during the 9/11 attack, it just squeeze my heart to pain. They're doing sky diving still, but they're doing it "trying to save" their lives but they weren't able to save it. Me, I hope to try sky diving for fun---it's attainable but it's not fun now.

2. I wanna try wearing bikinis on winter----it's weird but it's possible. I wanna know how it feels.

3. I wanna try camping, ALONE. :) It looks fun and I think I could survive if I have someone? hahaha~ lol----- no, seriously, I really wanna try camping ALONE. it's cool and I wanna know how it feels to be alone out in the woods with exotic animals around.

4. I wanna try sleeping in the cemetery. Is it really scary there? or it's just the thought having dead bodies underneath that makes it a little scary.

5. I wanna try saving someone in the battlefield, how does it feel? :) I could, but I won't.. but I want---- hahahaha! ^____^ sometimes, random things makes me think weird things...

In a serious way,

1. I want to try riding in a camel, elephant, giraffe, hippo----

2. I want to try building an orphanage or school for special children.

3. I want to try hosting in a famous television show.

Oh, now... I don't know what to try but as soon as it comes into my mind, I'll edit this and put it into writing~ :)

Being random is good, but sometimes----it's weird.

Fast Forward

Everyday has always been a surprise for me.

People changed, weather changed---food changed. But I am wondering if I am changing. ^___^

My weight maybe is changing, my pimple size is changing too but my life has been the same all this time.

To wake up in the morning is a miracle and every time I open my eyes to the reality of the world, it has always been a fast pace. FAST FORWARD. And just as I close my eyes, it's a different story, different person comes into your life, different situation yet uncertain.

They said, that's the beauty of life, the uncertainty of things makes it even more challenging. I'm a bit challenge to my purpose and destiny but sometimes I wish I could see things from beyond reality. I am actually happy with my life but people affects you're line of thinking sometimes. Environment adds the complications. But the more I think of these factors, the more I indulged myself with the unbalance life that we have.

Unbalance because everybody's FAST FORWARD. We never get to enjoy the slowness of the revolt of earth if we are always in a hurry of everything. People complain, ask and sometimes blame others or even the situation for having their situation but it's actually a choice to be stagnant in their life.

I consider myself average in my walk with life and the more I get to enjoy my journey, the more I wander my mind with unbelievable but achievable situation, the more I find myself slow in my journey. The world is huge and it's not fair to just walk the journey alone. I know I have God with me the whole time that's why I have been enjoying it a lot but how about others, what makes their path swift yet happy? Or are they really happy? or they are just concern of reality.

I am proud I am deviant. That what's makes my life even worth it. You get to realize things from others and compare it with yours. After all, Learning is part of the journey. If you're not hurt, you wont learn great. If you wont ask, you wont be answered.

Trust

It made me cogitate having been talked to a person online, TRUST is important. I am a person who have a hard time in earning trust and with this kind of connection even made me more complicated.

Out of the billions of people in the world you'll cross into someone's journey carrying only with you the word trust. It's hard to create a relationship when you don't know who the person you are talking to but it's also a challenge that I have to consider, if it's really true and real circumstance will finds it's way to make our worlds meet.

I don't believe in online relationship especially that I am so specific when it comes to character of a person that I am connected with. In today's complicated world, find one person who you could earn your trust pretty well excluding your family and close friends. That for me is a very hard task and I am completely blank of the certainty of every situation that's gonna happen between me and the other person. Trust is a significant value that a person should have before dipping himself to the depth of uncertainty.

Trusting one is like gambling, you don't know if you'll win but you risk just to win the game.

I hope I could think of trust like business. You'll invest your time, money and effort to it knowing that you already have the idea that you'll earn a profit and the business will succeed. But no matter what, I can't convince myself to believe in every detail of the situation that I have now.

There's only one person that I trust, It's God and all others I am in complete doubt over them.

But they said, if you wont try you wont know the outcome. So I'm giving myself a chance to explore the unexplored and see for myself if it's the right decision or not. After all, it all depends on me and my choice. If I fail, then there's no one to be blame but me.

But one thing for sure, TRUST once broken will never be repaired unless you made God the center of your relationship after the failure. Life is an obstacle, so as trust---- and if this is the story of my life, so be it. :)