Question and Answer

Can you come and take care of me?

It was the hardest question ever thrown.

I would love to say NO, but my heart want to say YES. I want to express what I feel but expressing it is the hardest thing to do. Deep inside me, I know I like you. I know that resisting you was one of the hardest thing I had to. My flesh want the other way, my heart wants the other, my spirit want it straight. It so hard.

I know there's something in you that I couldn't stop myself from thinking of you but there's also a part of me who's trying to control my entire system from bursting my emotions. I know I am an emotional wreck, but I am only emotional when the person is too special for me. When you want it but you can't feel the sincerity, I'd rather follow my own instinct than allowing someone to take a part of me and return it back broken.

We've tried our best to separate ourselves from each other, because we knew how hard it is to be closer. The closer we are, the more attachment we are making. The harder for us to cut the tie of uncertainty. We were successful, but, for how long?

Why are you making it so hard for me?

It's like you are making me choose between,

LIFE OR DEATH?

RIGHT OR LEFT?

UP OR DOWN?

HEART OR MIND?

FLESH OR SPIRIT?

I miss you, but I can't come and take care of you.

CAN YOU COME TAKE CARE OF ME INSTEAD? :)