Thorn in my Flesh

I found myself eating food I did not really needed. I just bought it because I want it and I wanted to satisfy myself from the attractiveness it gives me. It looks delicious---- and for me to know if it taste good, I should try it.

But I have been really wanting to lose weight. The thing is, it's just so hard to follow what my inner self is telling me. :)

I AM THORN IN MY FLESH.

I've been asking for strength from God for this uncertainty in my life. I know I cannot do it without Him in me and if I'm not going to push myself to really obey and do what God wanted me to do, it will be hard for me to achieve victory.

I did push myself but I challenged God and I told Him that I am not going to fail Him. When I opened my bible, the word is 2Cor. 2:9 "I put you to test whether you are obedient in all things". I carried with me God's word all day, but when you are in the midst of temptation and caught in your flesh--- the only way for you not to disobey God's word is to flee away from it. My flesh have been constantly fighting all day long, you wanted to let go but your flesh is telling you the other way around. That you can handle everything, that you have God's word and you are strong enough to fight for the fight--- but you are actually weak...

And the moment you're satisfied, then you realized---- i should have not done this. Guilt will then start to slowly cover you and will make you feel that you are not worthy to be called as God's servant. The continuous struggle of flesh and spirit will then eat you up. You know deep inside your heart you want to follow God but your flesh will always be trying to convince you and tempt you with things you thought you will never be tempted to do.

God has welcomed me back but I should stay focus and should be grounded with the word. I should not allow my flesh to win over my spirit. I should not give up the faith that I have now. I should not allow Satan to deceive me. I will fight back because Jesus is in me.

For when I am weak, then I am strong. :)

LESSON: OUR GREATEST ENEMY IS OUR FLESH.