Give TRUST a Chance

Stories could either change your perspective or mold you into a better person. 


I am not going to deny that I am greatly affected by the different stories of women being physically, emotionally, and sexually abused by man. Hearing their different story is like a torment in my heart. I felt that I am in their shoes and that part of me is also broken. I know that I have always been secured in God's warm embrace but every time I am reminded of the realities of this world, fear would always put a cloud in my heart. 


Each time I hear about the stories of women hurting in their marriage, I felt that I don't want to marry anymore. I felt that being single now is a choice and not an option. I felt that guys will always be abuser and they won't give love a chance. I hope I can fight this feeling.


If God wanted me to be single, I am more than willing to submit and surrender that to Him... but if singleness is a choice because I am too scared of what is in stored for me and my future, then that's not good. If I am bound to marry then it's going to happen but that's according to God's purpose in my life. But how can I do that.. 


If I don't give TRUST a chance.


I trust God but I don't trust myself.----- 
I don't trust my choices. I don't trust men. 


Heal me God. Heal me with the pain. I am almost there.. 


Just take away all the pain in my past. And the fear in my heart.