Just a Little Poke

You don't need any sympathy nor pity. You need acceptance.

Looking back, You're upset. Looking forward You're scared. Looking at the present, You're empty. Where should you look? You actually know where-- UP there. But why is it so difficult to look up when you're down. 

Why is it hard to be positive and hopeful. You've tried the hardest to endure every hurt, to submit to every struggle, to fight every battle but seems to you it's not enough. 

Scared of words? You weren't til you realized that your only hope left without saying goodbye is the hope you have for someone you look up to, you cared for, you love, you respect, you look forward to spending your life with--- The hope that one day, you can prove them wrong of an assumption that Love only exist in fairy tale, that no man is faithful, that no man is loyal, that no man is willing to give up his life for the woman he loves. 

It wont be easy and it will definitely take a lot of sacrifices on your part but does it have to be always one way? Don't get me wrong--- It's an honor to serve but when service isn't appreciated, it feels like service without benefit. The benefit to be loved and treated like you are needed not wanted. 

We all have our hopes, dreams but when you're dreaming and hoping alone--- when you're hopes are too blurry to see, when love is too much to ask for, when dreams are impossible to reach and when love couldn't be define by mere words alone. 

Then you tell yourself, is it really worth fighting for? Is really worth caring for? Is it really worth staying when every mistakes, you have to always say I'm lacking, It's my fault, It's me. Physically, you've been hurt but mentally, you are draining, spiritually you are still hopeful that one day it will change for the better.  When we expect too much, we fail greatest-- when we hope the least, we still fail strongest-- where should you stand? When you know you're only hope is Christ. When the other wants it and the other doesn't, when the other is hungry to hear it and the other is faithless to believe or let's just say, didn't really have that amazing feeling of security in Christ. 

Great at lip service but lack in action--- appreciate some gestures but failing in prayer. When you feel like everything is breaking apart but still believe that enduring until the end of time is the best thing to do. 

You can endure the physical pain, the emotional burden but the spiritual part--- It's hard. Jesus is real and our only job is to take Him seriously--- not through our words, our ability to go to church, to tithe, nor help others but our commitment to read his word, to grow together in prayer, to nurture each other in faith--- Seeking His Kingdom first. 

You don't mind if you're not needed anymore as long as Jesus is needed first then everything follows. A domino effect that you've always believe to happen with a little poke! Yes, a poke coupled with faith and the assurance that He is ready to turn things around in your life---- JUST CALL HIS NAME.