EXPLOSION

It's early and I'm early. Four hours of sleep from cake making and cousins (Chelsea and Denise) bonding.

I really wanted to just explode and just express what I am feeling but it's just so hard to put everything into writing when you don't even know what's bothering your mind. Is it someone? or is it just me making every thoughts complicated even without it being a BIG deal for me or for others.

I miss someone, but I don't have the right to miss this special creation even though "my heart feels she did". Sometimes, it's good to reprimand your heart and instruct her to just get rid of it while it's still manageable. Sometimes, I just wanted to pound it so hard for her to just listen to every given statement that I make but she always insist to what she wanted so I allow myself to compliment her and give her my consent with a touch of comfort to slow down a bit.

It's been a week without a facebook and it's been a relief for me. It's hard at first but it's a way of putting back the privacy from the roller coaster community. I know I am tempted sometimes but it's my obedienc

e to the Lord who controls myself every time. He's right that I have to give myself a break and discover new horizon and He has always been right to whatever circumstance in my life because now, I am back to writing again and I am able to dig the deeper side of me that have been sleeping forever. I guess it has been a year since the last time I shared my thoughts to the world.

Unlike facebook, through blogging I am able to release my sudden burst of emotions through writing without 2000 plus facebook friends knowing what I feel. It's still random but the difference is, I am free to express my thoughts without it being commented and liked by someone else. Everything is random and free falling.

Although I could not stalk other people's profile, the thing is it's just so amazing to feel secluded to the outside world and just think about yours once in a while. I am so much attached with everybody before that I am missing bits and pieces of my life.

It's time for me EXHALE. Allow me to share my thoughts when I felt the need to do it. You don't have to necessarily know, I just wanted to share. So just let it go!