I love you

I love you.

Such an awesome words to hear. I haven't heard these words in a while. I haven't felt it for a long time from someone of the opposite sex--- 

"Mr. M" told me he does but it's too fake that it wasn't even coming inside of me. How I wish it was real, how I wish it was true but I am sure it wasn't. "I love you" aren't words but an action words--- If he truly loves me, he could have showed it to me and make an effort for it. But never did I experience any of it. 

I hope when people say this words, they mean it---- they felt it..  Because it aren't just something that should be taken for granted and thrown.. 

Two days ago, someone told me "I love you"-- it didn't bother me but I was so shocked reading those words. Well, maybe because I haven't heard anyone told me I am loved.. not even my friends.. Oh I have one friend who does, Marie---- :) but she only tells me she loves me because I always tell her I love. (It makes sense right?). But with someone you barely know and spend time with, it's near to impossible to hear those words. I am glad the he did but I felt that it's too temporary--- I hope that when people tells me they love me, it's for real and not because they're just under the influence of alcohol.

Those words means a lot to me, it gives me the strength to smile despite the sufferings and pains. And I won't lie, it did surprised me when "Mr. D" said that---- but he made my day. Deep inside me I wished it was true. Deep inside me, I wished he meant it. Deep inside me, I wished he didn't just said it because he was drunk. He's a special friend. Even my closest friends don't say those words to me--- So I am just glad someone did. 

I love you. Deep as it sounds but it can change someone's feelings. And emotions might be fickle sometimes, but it can provide such bliss in your heart that can't be explain by mere words.