There's no race in grace

It's been 5 months now since I got engaged and we have finish most of the things needed for the Big Day. I should say I am blessed enough to have parent's in law who are very generous to help us out with the expenses and all the people who shared their resources.

Now that we have 3 weeks before the wedding, it's even more harder because you aren't only thinking of the wedding but the marriage by itself. Just thinking of living together, sharing one house together, one toilet, one bed and mostly everything in 3 weeks, it's scary but at the same time a challenge that we both have to make and it will take a lot of effort for both of us--- having brought up in different homes, different environment, different background, different values, different beliefs, different routine-- However, as long as we hold on to the promises of God and not our own capability, it'll will work just great.

I am excited for the marriage but to be honest, I am so scared. I am scared of what I cannot and what I am not. it's like having to remind myself that life will not be about me anymore but about us. It can be about just what I want, but what we both want and what we both need. To understand such is to first understand the value of Christ in my life--- to value dying oneself for the service and love for others.. it's always sacrificial and as a human, I can't make it, I can't do it--- I would be a hypocrite if I will say I can because if I do, we wouldn't make it this far to our engagement.

I am weak in my capability to be patient, to love.. to care but through God's grace----all my weaknesses turns into strength and all the more for me to strive hard to seek for God's presence everyday.

I'm signing up to a BIG commitment in my life and it will be amazing if we both try in a godly perspective.  I'm counting the days until I do and I pray that when we say our vows to each other, it won't be centered to both of us but the God we are serving---it is only through Christ that we can survive for the next 50 or 60 years of marriage and I trust Him in every direction and purpose.

When there is grace, there's no race.