Blind Folded Roller Coaster

I prayed for it so now it's answered it's just a matter of submission.

The feeling is not excruciating but it's full of questions and doubts. It just bothers me when I think of him. It bothers me when he's online. It bothers me when I miss him. It bothers me when I am always worried of what he is doing. It bothers me. It just bothers me. It bothers me. I just couldn't accept the fact that the more time I am not seeing him and talking to him, the higher the chance of falling in love. The more I force myself to just enjoy the journey and not push ourselves with circumstance, the more I allow myself to fall into the pit of love.

I thought it wont come into a point of missing him so badly to the point that I will just have to stare on his name in ooVoo waiting for him to click the call button. I am not really the type who do the first move although I am expressive and I am true to what I am feeling, I still find it improper. The more I indulge myself with the "missing so badly game"---the more reason I find to like him even more.

I believe in God's way of making 2 person meet together and having this kind of emotional attachment to someone is like a roller coaster ride with your eyes blind folded. You may enjoy the ride but you will never have the opportunity to enjoy the sight and the UP's and Down's of the ride. You find yourself surprised in every movement no matter it's up or it's down, left or right---- the ride is still unknown.

I remember I tried the Dark Knight ride in Six Flags. It's a roller coaster ride but you don't know when to fall and when the train flip to the right or left or up---all i know is I am inside the train, preparing myself to every surprise movement.

Just like what I felt now, it's a guessing game. It's a trudging the unknown and preparing yourself to fall or to climb up--- to turn left or to turn RIGHT. It doesn't matter where you are going, what matter most is that you are enjoying your butt out and just scream out during the ride.

And now, I know Exactly what I wanted to do----'SCREAM'---